Reconsider Everything

I've had sometime to reflect about what I wrote in a previous blog called "Starting". I've become more solidified. Congeal, if you will. I have deemed it unnecessary for my man and I to move in together right now. I'm not sure when exactly it would be necessary, but I'm OK with us not co-habitating. It feels like there's a lot of pressure these days to follow a certain relationship guideline. For instances, at 3 months you should be saying "I Love You" or at 6 months this should be happening. Well, some people just don't fit into those "molds". I myself am good with taking it easy. What's the rush? I have learned from past history mistakes to NOT rush anything. Plus, Travis hasn't lived on his own, own with no roommates in....god I don't even know. It's been a really long time though. Plus I'm still figuring out how to be a single Ma', live on my own again and take care of my babies. A little soul searching, and standing on my own two feet. That means a lot to me. My independence is everything to me. I don't want to feel like I need to rely on somebody else. In all honesty, it scares me to death. The idea of living with a man again.

I think I was really upset before because I felt rejected. Which is normal. I took it personally. We have a really great thing going between us. The best either of us has ever had. It's a grown-up kind of thing, which is such a nice change. No yelling and screaming, we talk. Most of the time it is rainbows and lollipops full of sunshine and sugar. I do believe I have found the other half of me. Like Dr. Evil says to Mini Me, "you complete me". Ahh, too funny.

All in all I am saited, content, full and loved. In no need of convincing, or feeling pressured. It'll happen, like most things, when it's ready to.

And I'm OK with that