Well I can't give you everything you want
But I could give you what you thought need
A map to keep beneath your seat
You'll read to me in time. I'll get you there
But fold it up so we don't find our way back
So nobody knows we're here
We can park the van and walk to town
Find the cheapest bottle of wine we could find
And talk about the road behind
How getting lost is not a waste of time
Le Bois d'Amour will take us home
In the moment we will sing as the forest sings
It's all for the the sake of arriving with you
Well it's all for the sake of arriving with you
Well, I will make the table into a bed
The candle is burning down, it's time to rest
I cant' take back things already gone
But I could give you promises for keeps
And would only take them back if they became your own and you gave them to me
And it's all for the sake of arriving with you
Well it's all for the sake of arriving with you
We could make this into anything
We could make this into more than words we speak
This could make us into anything
It could makes us grow and become what we'll be
How will we really know?
Its' just like it feels, just like it feels
How can we really know?
It's just like it feels , just like it feels
Just like it feels, how does it feel?
Just like it feels, just like it feels
How does it feel, just like it feels
How does it feel?
Lyrics by Jack Johnson
Bold type is significant to me
Monday, November 10, 2008
Heavy
Heavy feelings weighing me down
Some good, some profound
Scatterbrained and dis collect
No matter what, I hope we connect
Excitement and passion
You bring it out
This rise in me, I don't know what it's about
Mind still trippin' we go out or just stay home
It's all the same
Being with you is sound
Stir my mind like a crazy cocktail of fluttery
Hope these feelings last of buttery
Intellectual and certainty
I wish you'd just let me be
Can't stand this condition
Put me in a position, to be
Stupid and Happy
It's a good combo, I definitely see!
Where's my helmet
Heavy, you weigh down on me
On my mind constantly
Heavy
Some good, some profound
Scatterbrained and dis collect
No matter what, I hope we connect
Excitement and passion
You bring it out
This rise in me, I don't know what it's about
Mind still trippin' we go out or just stay home
It's all the same
Being with you is sound
Stir my mind like a crazy cocktail of fluttery
Hope these feelings last of buttery
Intellectual and certainty
I wish you'd just let me be
Can't stand this condition
Put me in a position, to be
Stupid and Happy
It's a good combo, I definitely see!
Where's my helmet
Heavy, you weigh down on me
On my mind constantly
Heavy
Remember Me
There you stood
Beautiful man!
Wholly for me to devour
I let myself in
Trespass gently upon your heart
Step lightly, not to disturb your frailty
Open eyed and willing
Aroused your consciousness
Remember me
I let myself in, but you gave me the key
Beautiful man!
Wholly for me to devour
I let myself in
Trespass gently upon your heart
Step lightly, not to disturb your frailty
Open eyed and willing
Aroused your consciousness
Remember me
I let myself in, but you gave me the key
Divorce is a Magical Thing
Woo Hoo!!! I'm free....almost.
After six years of being with the same person, it's all come to end. I can say that I'm pretty darn happy about that. I mean, it's kind of sad to move on only because sometimes I think about the good times we had. The births of our children, and some other funny random moments that existed between us. For the most part though, it was a lot of shit. A lot of stuff that I'm glad I won't have to put up with anymore. I feel relieved. Now my focus is my children. Making sure they'll be OK. They seem to be dealing quite well. Children are very resilient.
I've filed, but this is only the beginning. Now we get to fight about the house and money. He's stated numerous times that he wants me to have full custody, which is perfectly fine by me. The only reason for this is because in my opinion he's selfish. He wants to be all about his band and his "rockstar" life. Ha, fucking ha! It'll be his loss someday when our children are all grown up and he hasn't barely seen any of it. Sad really.
About the house? Yeah, he wants the kids and I out so the house can just go into foreclosure. Wicked smart. I'm really gonna move my kids out of the only house they know, where Aidan just started school. Brillant. Also, it's gonna cost the same amount for a two bedroom apartment in this area as it would to just keep paying the mortgage.
After all, he makes me angry. Not because of the divorce, but because I feel as if he's letting our kids down. I never show this anger to him. Any text, email or phone conversation I stay mature, never name call. Yet, he feels the need to call me names. What the hell did I get myself into?? If I could have any magic power, it would be to foresee the future. Right? Right.
Throughout this ordeal, I have had a lot of support from my family, my friends and my co-workers. This time, I shant try to go back. Last time I did, and I shouldn't have then I didn't have the support that I do now. Plus I'm just DONE. 6 years gone wasted....partially. I'm a pretty strong willed woman, and I will make it onto the other side. As Nick Hexum would sing, "Beyond the Gray Sky" that's me, looking beyond the gray sky. I know it won't be like this forever, I know. I count my blessings that I have my good friend Kelsey, she keeps my head on straight.
Wish me luck in my endeavors......
After six years of being with the same person, it's all come to end. I can say that I'm pretty darn happy about that. I mean, it's kind of sad to move on only because sometimes I think about the good times we had. The births of our children, and some other funny random moments that existed between us. For the most part though, it was a lot of shit. A lot of stuff that I'm glad I won't have to put up with anymore. I feel relieved. Now my focus is my children. Making sure they'll be OK. They seem to be dealing quite well. Children are very resilient.
I've filed, but this is only the beginning. Now we get to fight about the house and money. He's stated numerous times that he wants me to have full custody, which is perfectly fine by me. The only reason for this is because in my opinion he's selfish. He wants to be all about his band and his "rockstar" life. Ha, fucking ha! It'll be his loss someday when our children are all grown up and he hasn't barely seen any of it. Sad really.
About the house? Yeah, he wants the kids and I out so the house can just go into foreclosure. Wicked smart. I'm really gonna move my kids out of the only house they know, where Aidan just started school. Brillant. Also, it's gonna cost the same amount for a two bedroom apartment in this area as it would to just keep paying the mortgage.
After all, he makes me angry. Not because of the divorce, but because I feel as if he's letting our kids down. I never show this anger to him. Any text, email or phone conversation I stay mature, never name call. Yet, he feels the need to call me names. What the hell did I get myself into?? If I could have any magic power, it would be to foresee the future. Right? Right.
Throughout this ordeal, I have had a lot of support from my family, my friends and my co-workers. This time, I shant try to go back. Last time I did, and I shouldn't have then I didn't have the support that I do now. Plus I'm just DONE. 6 years gone wasted....partially. I'm a pretty strong willed woman, and I will make it onto the other side. As Nick Hexum would sing, "Beyond the Gray Sky" that's me, looking beyond the gray sky. I know it won't be like this forever, I know. I count my blessings that I have my good friend Kelsey, she keeps my head on straight.
Wish me luck in my endeavors......
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